I wished that I would be blowing candles with love and joy, but it was not as I expected, I cried a lot as if someone broke my toy. I was happy because I would not be a teen anymore, but a girl with a responsibility to grow as mature as well as a little secretive girl you know. I was blessed with love but those blessings made me miss the old me.
My Mum, Father, Brother, and Sister wished for me, I was so happy as if a six years old child got a lot of toys. All my loved ones gave me a lot of gifts but all I was missing was my happy face behind that pretending one as well that mature face had a lot of thoughts and feelings that I wanted to scream out so loud to everyone and to let them know that I have been dying from inside from so long that you never noticed because I think I was the best actor in acting that I am fine I am happy. You do not have to worry about my shit that I have been suffering from.
This pretty looking girl(me) was also upset and sad, wanted to fly and catch because my favorite person was not with me on such an important day of my life. She blessed me from so far that her love could not reach me.
At the end of the day, all I had was my parents, my friends. Wait I am wrong, it was all me.
Guess What it was? It was my twentieth birthday